Havent been writing for some time. decides to write today as i feel that no one actually reads my blog anymore due to months of inaction. Just finish catching the jay chow show-secret. emotions stirred in my jaded heart.
If i have a piano score that can transport me back to the period i experienced true love, how great that would be. i miss you charmaine. deep down in my heart even thou its 3 years we broken up, you have never left me. etched deep in my heart, no eraser can void the memories u brought to me. good and sad..
Today is the freshman camp of the newest batch of undergrads. it was during this period, our fate first intertwined. 3 years had passed since that time. how i misses you.. i tried to be nonchalent, indifferent and had numerous girls after you. no one has successfully replace you. since the breakup, you have moved on. i have moved on.. at least i tried to move on. i will give up anything just to turn back the clock to that moment in my life. the bliss then. the torment now.
Movies like "Secret" haunts me.. unlike the frictional characters, i cannot turn back time, to revert back to a period i won your heart first, then break the love we share. though the time spent was short, it raptured my heart. my heart pines no end for you. alcohol can dampen the pain. other girls can divert the misery.. time can corodes the memory.. but nothing so far, has cure the misery.. i miss you still.
Time waits for no one.. overchiche metaphorical statement no doubt but true to the last word. i can no longer turn back to a period of innocence, a period of true love and bliss, a period of unparrellel joy.. im an empty shell devoid of true love and bliss. i have the fortune of a gf now who loves me deeply. however i knew deep down, she aint the one to take over the past, to cure the pain. but then again, who is? my heart beated for her. since then, it continues to beat not cause of anyone but because i must continue my odyssey in life.
Whatever you are doing now charmaine, i can only watch you from afar praying and hoping that someday, somehow i will be with you even if its for the same 2 months 6 days, i will tell you that yes i will accept it.. i will still be your man. i silently sink back into the nite with tears..
