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Tons of regrets.. sorrow is how i felt most.. the acute pain piercing through my heart as i fumbles for the right word to say. i did wrong.. i did that person wrong.. i wish so dearly to blame the alcohol that inhibits my ability to think.. to rationalize.. to no avail. i did that person wrong.

Beng talk to me about my characters. I am flawed.. i know i have alot of strengths as an individual but no matter what, i aint perfect. the worst thing is not being imperfect.. the worst thing is hurting and angering the person that you care for. i rather be hurt than hurt that person.

I wont reveal the name of the person not because of fear of embarrashing myself but i do not wish to dwell and hurt her more. alcohol is stupid. if she forgives me this once, i swear upon my life that i would never touch another drop in my life. alcohol is no respite. its threatening to take away my life, my values and those i care for most.

I am a stupid imbecile. i realize that. though i feel its too late for regrets and the countless apologies im trying to convey, i hope that person know.. for possibly the umpteenth time.. how much i care and how bad i felt right now. i am wrong.. forgive me? tears form out of pining and regrets. forgive me please..