Part 2 of hit posting

After the relatively success (alot of frens msn me to congratulate me on my blunder and all were relatively euphoric at my worst attempt to date a girl out. period) of my previous entree "I saw, i went and i screw out", i had the misfortune to type the 2nd part of the entree for your collectively amusement now.. drumrolls... tadammm..

I though i might never contact her again least meeting her. i did however and did i fare better this time round? i dont think so. a blunder of nerves again and i shink deeper into self-destruction at least when pertaining to chasing her that area. sigh..

After that debacle, i thought hard over it. should i let it go and curse myself for being a premature loser or try again and risk being a perpetual loser? tough choice when the ultimate end results seem to resonate the same thing.. a loser.. i hate that term but miracle still exists. or so i thought.

First i msged her again. itchy fingers and the unbearable urge to contact her again gets the better of my pride and clouded my judgement. her replies were normal but thats good as it mean she still treats me at least as a friend. in fact her sms stirred me into actions as i seek to try win her over again.

Last night, we all (meaning urine n min) went out again. mei hua came along i joined them late. i know the vballers are not going to be pleased since i pang seh them for this outing.. i also did not try to meet my swedish girl. i know im chee hong but rest assured.. its only cos its her i do this. other girls, i will never miss the vball meeting... hope the vballers are not too crossed with me cos i think they may be.. sigh.

So did i enjoyed our meet together? im tornt to answer this. on one hand of cos im happy to see her again and etc. on the other hand however, i further didnt cover myself in glory with my stupidity and abysmal performance again. i couldnt look at her or talk without stuttering.. its so freaking frustrating when i knew im not like that in reality..

I think she might be looking at my blog soon. i am actually a little bit confused on what to write. hmm.. i guess i will not pursue this further le ba.. some may asked.. what can u promised to someone who is already working, of a marriageable age while u continue to be stuck in the rat chase for a piece of paper?? i thought long and hard over it.. i suck at talking face to face i guess (to her i mean)..

So if she happens to look at this, these are the rewards she will get for accepting me(should a miracle happened)..

1 = lots of love, care and concern
2 = free flow of hugs and kisses
3 = understanding and a shoulder to cry on if the need arises
4 = 50% off all insurance products (since thats the comm i be getting)
5 = a driver to her favourite destinations for 2 years. contract to be renewed after that
6 = secrets on urine, min and everyone else in nbss for her amusement
7 = 2 workdays unless she want to meet more
8 = lots of pressies
9 = medical benefits (cap at the maximum of my bank account)
10 = travel visits annually (subjected to my bank account balance again)
11 = her punching bag if she gets frustrated in work
12 = promises to dress up, talk sensibly (no crapping and making a fool of myself) during the presence of her friends and remained in shape till age and beer gets the better of me
13 = others terms are negotiable (stop at 13 cos its my fav no)

As you can see, she got herself a very very good deal should she accept my application. i doubt so she will bite the bait. for readers readying themselves for a part 3 version, i guess they be disappointed.. the rot stops here. i am a person not highly noted for my patience. as i can sense no interests whatsover in her of me, i shall count my losses and retreat. a defeatist mentality no doubt.. but when faced with such a formidable adversary, you need to do some soul searching and infer. is there a possibility of the result u want to ever materialise?

The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. i guess i took 3 steps already. the path ahead is fraught with uncertainties and almost certain failure.. i guess i am not the sort that will wana trawl a thousand miles b4 i concede defeat.. i will concentrate on making money now le ba..

Pss.. If you are the one im describing about and thinks im very wrong in my assessment, my mobile is on 24/7 to accept that sms.. thanks.