Ramblings on love
A student shared with me an anecdote of hers lately that she used to be so clueless even on the meaning of LOVE. I was stumped. Fact is.. I suspect that I myself do not understand the true meaning of love.
I had went through numerous relationships. Some good, others bad. The important thing is all ends up in tatters one way or another. Having resume my bachelorhood lately, a fact failed to escape my attention.. Indeed I'm getting on in age.
I remembered wishing to settle down by 27 years old maximum in the past. In a couple of months, I will turn 27. No marriage remains in sight and doesn't look anything close to it too. While I constantly reminds those around me on the virtues of having a stable and remarkable career first before switching your focus to your love life, its not difficult to see that it is way easier to expound on it than to really practice it.
Almost ashamed to admit that in spite of numerous girlfriends and aging by the minutes, I remain none the wiser on love. How provocative that even those people who went through probably half of what I'm been through, can narrate and adhere to love and its teachings much better than I do.
I have decided to go Dubai. The last time I traveled overseas to do my exchange was to escape a broken relationship and its remnants of memories, promises and hopes. This time I hope to really push on for my career. If ultimately, I remains luckless with the God of Love, I hope at least I can be successful in my work and give fortunes and happiness to my family.
I continued to hope that enlightenment of love and the bliss it brings will struck me soon. Hope is dissipating fast though..
I had went through numerous relationships. Some good, others bad. The important thing is all ends up in tatters one way or another. Having resume my bachelorhood lately, a fact failed to escape my attention.. Indeed I'm getting on in age.
I remembered wishing to settle down by 27 years old maximum in the past. In a couple of months, I will turn 27. No marriage remains in sight and doesn't look anything close to it too. While I constantly reminds those around me on the virtues of having a stable and remarkable career first before switching your focus to your love life, its not difficult to see that it is way easier to expound on it than to really practice it.
Almost ashamed to admit that in spite of numerous girlfriends and aging by the minutes, I remain none the wiser on love. How provocative that even those people who went through probably half of what I'm been through, can narrate and adhere to love and its teachings much better than I do.
I have decided to go Dubai. The last time I traveled overseas to do my exchange was to escape a broken relationship and its remnants of memories, promises and hopes. This time I hope to really push on for my career. If ultimately, I remains luckless with the God of Love, I hope at least I can be successful in my work and give fortunes and happiness to my family.
I continued to hope that enlightenment of love and the bliss it brings will struck me soon. Hope is dissipating fast though..
posted by david at 3:40 AM
1 Comments:
Cher.
Maybe I'm in no position whatsoever to say this la, maybe it doesn't even make sense too, but who cares.
Personal opinion. Carries no weight. I may be wrong, but...
I read your actions of going overseas for exchange etc. as a form of escaping. Maybe its untrue la huh, but.. thats how I read it.
Maybe coming back from a break really does help, but still, face it. The truth is always harsh. (Gee. Sound like prof or something when I'd never had a boyfriend before. =x) What I mean is, face it. Don't escape. Escaping doesn't bring anything. However, if you ever do try to face up to relationship stuffs, who knows? You may yield something outta it.
Anyhow, I'm always here if you need counselling or something. *smile!* (=
So long.
Your bhb stud.
Janice[:
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