Deflated

Today went for the vball training. Was actually pretty hyped up prior to the training so much so that I even put off going to hospital to remove my piles since the doctor said I would be out of action for minimum a week..

Chris came down and joined in as well. I was actually very disappointed and hurt deep down. I have prepared a cake and some tidbits to celebrate the birthdays of the September babies. However I felt that I was being underappreciated..

I had a hard time even to get them for a photo shoot and after much cajoling, I finally took some pictures none of which were satisfactory. I am really really hurt deep down.. I really do care for them and always put them in the first place. This incident has truly deflated me..

I do not ask for tangible benefits or recognition but the minimum to do is to appreciate the extent I have gone through this for them?? Minus away rushing to cake shop to buy a cake, preparing tidbits and even coming for vball while my piles up still up my arse, I really have hoped that the response would be better and that they could see the effort I put in?

In the end, it felt as if I force them to celebrate and the whole celebration became a sham that was as if to please me more than them. Nothing more to add.