Feelings before the trip

Honestly, im scared of the inpending trip.. somehow i dun feel so gungho, so excited anymore. it could be the daunting plane trip as i always have a phobia or them or it could be the fact i will be away for so long. heck it could even be the fact that i be missing my family and everything i have back in singapore.

actually i am very fearful that i wont be able to make it back alive. the plane ride freaks the hell out of me. i just have this bad omen that something bad is going to happen. hopefully this is jus pre departure jitters that i will soon overcome.

somehow, im beginning to miss my family even b4 i leave. i wonder if i have been a good son and good brother. taking up the trip doesnt seem to be a very responsible thing to do as i would be adding on to my family's financial strain. i hereby swear that when i graduate, i will do my utmost to care for them. i really will..

dint went to work today. was simply too tired and getting sick. went to see a doctor and took some medications. goggly so went sick. not good.. getting sick so near to the trip. but i will managed. it could be a blessing in disguise as ur health tend to get better after a small illness. =)